February 12, 2018

I think I’ve mentioned before that I am a youth leader at church! I absolutely love being a youth leader and I 100% believe that God has called me to work with high school girls. When you have made as many life changing mistakes as I have, and have a God who has offered me as much grace as he has, I find it obvious and crucial to then turn around and share this good news with others! Hopefully along the way imparting some wisdom I have gained to help guide these younger ones, so that they can avoid/escape some of the pots holes I fell into. 

Another reason I love leading in the youth group is that it honestly keeps me on top of my game.  I value being an authentic and real leader, therefore I need to practice what I preach. If I’m telling you to spend time daily with God, I need to be spending time daily with God. If I’m telling you that His plan is good and to be trusted, I too need to trust in His plan and believe it is good. 

This semester I am leading a study...

August 5, 2017

Sandwiches are SO good. If you have the perfect combination of bread, condiment and insides it can literally be insanely delicious. My personal favorite is a turkey, swiss cheese, lettuce and banana peppers with mayo/mustard on a yummy sub. I recently had a SERIOUSLY amazing sandwich at this place in Charlottesville called Take It Away Sandwich Shop. I mean WOW. It was SO good! I love sandwiches so much now, that it’s crazy to me that I went seven years without truly eating a sandwich….

I FEARED sandwiches. They were everything “bad.” Carbs. High calorie dressing/sauces. Cheese. All foods on the “do not eat” list and especially not eaten together in one sitting. It sounds funny to say that I feared sandwiches. Did I fear them like someone fears heights? Was it the same fear that I have when it comes to snakes? Was it the fear I have of being hurt by a relationship? Actually, yes. It was very much the same.

You might say, “Sara, how could you have honestly not eaten a sandwich? Didn’...

July 8, 2017

I missed blogging last week. I’m sorry! It was for a good reason though! 

I was on a youth group Missions Trip in Guatemala! My husband and I have been youth leaders for almost five years now. (1) As a youth group we sponsor many kids through Compassion International and every couple years we go on a short term missions trip to meet them. My husband and I also sponsor a little girl ourselves! The purpose of this trip was to go down to Guatemala, meet the kids we sponsor and serve their communities!

If I’m being honest, I kind of dreaded this trip. 

Eight months ago I sat in my dietician’s office and brought up the Missions trip. My husband and I wanted to go, but I didn’t want to go with my body like THIS, and we had to decide because spaces were filling up quick. I was still swelling a lot, overweight and weak. I had been sedentary for about a year and even going on long walks was draining. I felt embarrassed to meet the girl we support because I am much larger now then I was in the init...

June 24, 2017

It’s summer! As we all know, summer means less clothing coverage, beach vacations, diets to the max and body image issues. Our hidden and hibernating winter bodies are now out for show and the stress of making them look good, or hiding what doesn’t look good, is in full effect! I would venture to say it is a recovering anorexics worst nightmare. This nightmare, while terrifying, also brought about my first taste of freedom from my eating disorder!

For the past few years my immediate family has headed down to South Carolina for a beach vacation. Typically I would start preparing for this months in advance. I mean, I had to wear a bikini so it was crucial that my wobbly bits firm up and I look as fit and thin as possible. My eating disorder was in full control. I would do cleanses, cut out food groups, count the calories of every morsel that entered my mouth and exercise for hours on end. I became an expert on the newest diet, and nothing would get in my way. My mind was completely consum...

June 10, 2017

One thing that continues to surprise people is that an eating disorder is not about the food. It is a mental illness that is about control, not an issue with food itself. The food is just a symptom of a deeper problem. It’s kind of hard for me to write that it is a mental illness because, well, that would mean I am mentally ill, and who wants to be that?! There is something wrong with my mind. Somewhere along the line things went wrong, and this voice popped up and decided to take over the show. My mind decided this was the best way to cope with problems. I personally wish my mind had chosen travel, or photography or mission in order to cope....Nope! It chose eating disorder.  I know what went wrong, and that is a topic for another time, but nonetheless my mind was taken over by this nasty voice. 

This voice is powerful and has the ability to wreck me with one blow. It has the ability to change my mood, emotions, desire to eat, my sense of worth, my values, my body image and i...

May 30, 2017

Self care is something that I had never really heard of until about a year ago. I was sitting in my support group and one of the girls made the goal to practice more self care that week. I thought, what the heck is that? Are you really going to sit at home and color in one of those new adult coloring books? Couldn’t you be doing something more productive with your time? It sounds so crazy now, but the idea of intentionally taking time to care for myself was foreign. I have a job, I’m fighting an eating disorder, I have a husband and a dog and dinner to make and bills to pay and deadlines to meet and youth to serve, and a house to clean, who has time for coloring and slow walks through the park?

I mean, obviously I know that I need to take care of myself when I have a cold or get more sleep when I’m exhausted, brush my teeth and exercise, but that was kind of the extent of my “self care.” I had always been taught that you put others first and yourself last, so this idea of self care felt...

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