INWARDLY RENEWED

Hello Everybody!!

I hope you are all having a lovely weekend so far!

It’s been a while since I have shared a coping skill, and since I used this one a lot the last couple of weeks, I thought I would share it! It’s called The Tangled Ball of Emotions. 

Oddly enough I didn’t learn of this coping skill from my therapist or anything affiliated with eating disorders. During all this Covid stuff my church has been having morning devotionals on Facebook and every once in a while one of the missionaries of the church leads the devotion! This particular morning, a couple of months ago, it was a missionary in France who I actually went to high school with! (Hey Halle!!!) She is amazing and into all the arts, (music, painting etc.) so she is very my style. She shared how the pandemic had been effecting her and then shared this cool coloring sheet that helps you kind of work through the emotions you are having in order to figure out how you are really feeling and what you might need.

Since I love anyt...

Well hello there!!

Happy Saturday!

I’m currently camping in Cooks Forest, PA and honestly, it is a much needed break.

I’ve always said I would keep it 100 with my readers. (This is a phrase my little sister uses that I recently learned, and apparently it mean to keep things 100% honest, on the level, the real deal. Don't make fun of me, I'm 36!). So here I am, keeping it 100 with you!

I haven't blogged the last two weeks because.......I actually haven't been doing that well in recovery and have needed some time to get it together. No, I haven’t relapsed or started to restrict my food. It’s been more of a mental struggle then a physical one. Anorexia is not all about the food and control of food, it’s also a deep mental battle over controlling anxiety and body image and stress.

I don’t know if it was blogging about my overshoot that triggered it all but it seems as if ever since I blogged about my overshoot my mind has gone wacko and I got all stressed out about my weight, food, body im...

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I hope you all had a wonderful week! I didn’t blog last week because some family came in town. Don’t worry, we were covid safe! It was either spend time with them, or spend time in front of my computer.... I chose them! Which honestly, is a step for me in practicing self-care. Usually I freak out and HAVE to blog, but I realized it’s ok and my blog can wait a week!

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I want to start by giving a trigger warning! This blog will be talking about overshooting, weight loss, triggers and ED behaviors. I do use numbers.

If these subjects cause you to be triggered, I suggest you take care of yourself and pass on todays blog!

I’ve had a lot of readers ask about my overshoot and I want to address it,

but also don’t want to cause others to stumble! When it comes to recovery, take care of yourself first!

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Losing the overshoot weight.....

I can’t believe I even just wrote that sentence. 

I NEVER thought my overshoot weight would EVER c...

Happy Saturday everyone!

This past week seemed to go by at the pace of a snail!

*******I want to start by giving a trigger warning! This blog will be talking about overshooting and weight loss and I use numbers.

If these subjects cause you to be triggered, I suggest you take care of yourself and pass on todays blog!

I’ve had a lot of readers ask about my overshoot and I want to address it over the next few weeks,

but also don’t want to cause others to stumble! When it comes to recovery, take care of yourself first!*****

Today I will continue sharing my journey of overshooting in recovery! If you are sick of this topic, sorry! I will be done with it in a few weeks, :) promise!

Last week I shared how much I overshot and my gaining experience. This week I’m going to talk about the years when my body had gained the weight and just kind of stayed there. I like to say this is the time I was living in Satans’ butt-crack. Yep, you read that right! Can you think of a worse place to be? I can’t!

You may...

*******I want to start by giving a trigger warning! This blog will be talking about overshooting and weight loss and I use numbers.

If these subjects cause you to be triggered, I suggest you take care of yourself and pass on todays blog!

I’ve had a lot of readers ask about my overshoot and I want to address it over the next few weeks,

but also don’t want to cause others to stumble! When it comes to recovery, take care of yourself first!*****

“But what if I gain 100 pounds?!”

This was the question I asked myself literally a million times before I entered treatment, after I entered treatment, when I started the re-feeding process, as I gained weight, when the weight gain never seemed to stop......you get the idea. 

Weight gain in treatment was my BIGGEST fear. I didn’t care about my heart, my bone density, my suicidal thoughts or being controlled by an Eating Disorder. I cared MOST about how much weight I would gain, would this really work, how fat would I get, what people would say about me,...

Happy Saturday Everyone!!!

*******I want to start by giving a trigger warning! This blog will be talking about overshooting and weight loss.

If these subjects cause you to be triggered, I suggest you take care of yourself and pass on todays blog!

I’ve had a lot of readers ask about my overshoot and I want to address it over the next few weeks,

but also don’t want to cause others to stumble! When it comes to recovery, take care of yourself first!*****

I would say that the questions I receive the most about my recovery have to do with overshooting. 

So, these next few blogs I’m going to talk about overshooting, what it is, what my personal experience with it has been and how I’ve dealt with it. I will answer the BIG question.......is it true, when you overshoot, even by a lot, does the weight go back down?

For those that have no idea what I’m talking about, overshooting is when your body, during recovery, gains weight past your normal set point (a.k.a .your normal weight, the weight wher...